Sister, Give Yourself Permission: A Hot Mess Manifesto for Pursuing Pleasure

Christy Williams
7 min readNov 21, 2020
Photo by Simona Todorova on Unsplash

“What do you do for fun?”

I hate this question. Because I have absolutely not had enough fun over the last few years.

Life has been heavy, and I carried a lot of the heaviness in my heart, letting it weigh me down. Perhaps more than I should have. Or perhaps I should have just learned to put it down every now and then, take breaks from the darkness, and remind myself more of the light that still remained in the world.

I let it envelop me too much — even now. I realized that over the past few days, when I took a moment out of my work day to walk my dog around the park near my home. Or just sit on my patio and stick my face in the sun while chatting and laughing with a sweet soul on the phone.

In those moments, I felt such peace and happiness and was so grateful to feel it even for a hot minute in between work and To Do’s and kids and the bigger stuff of life. But as blessed as I am in my life and to feel some semblance of peace in 2020, I want more.

I. Want. Fun.

Of course, in the middle of a pandemic, fun is now relative. I used to enjoy going to the movies or out to dinner with friends…things that are more limited now, or not possible at all. So coming up with fun things to do that are…

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Christy Williams

Expert in her own midlife crisis, and not-at-all an expert in spiritual awakenings, both of which are currently ongoing for her. christywilliamswriter on FB&IG